YEAY!!!! I have finally delivered my valedictorian speech!!!!!!!!! Woohooo!!!! Ling only took a video of me which I have yet to upload it to youtube and post it here. I feel super duper happie... whee.... Now waiting for suria's news at 12 midnight cos i missed the first telecast. My mum said there was a brief feature of my face. Hehehe..

Niwae, I had fun yesterday cos it was MY day... Muahahaha!!! Received lots of practical gifts. Kids nowadays are different from the past. They noe wat practicality is. 

I get to be a fairy at night. I love having wings!! I also get to sprinkle flowers on stage that  night. Hahha!! 

but it will be geekish stuff... if u r not a geek, den dun go. khekhekhe....

Then, I got to know that two of the BIMZ are actually tinkin of joining my profession. I felt quite disappointed actually cos i haf been deterring others from joining me. So, of all people, i dun expect them to be in my line too... Wat's worse is that those two frens are the smartest Bimbos I have ever known!! Much smarter than me. So, y shud they waste their brain cells to scold the kids and do the endless markings when they could try to invent cheaper fuel or find cures for Aids or sth??!!

Today, I have spent 8 hours of endless markings and i was on the brink of sanity. It is during these times that i felt like killin myself. I even smsed ling that if i do kill myself, i'll make sure i'll come back to revenge the kids. Yah.. that's how crazy i have bcum.

I m not surprised if i appear in the newspaper in a few yrs time with the headline "Tcher gone mad and sent to the mental hospital." or worse, "Tcher gone mad and went on a killing rampage."

That's my job now. Wasting an average of 4 hours of my life, everyday, marking work of those kids who dun even care abt their work. I wish my kids are more responsible for their work but it seemed that they dun even care if their work is in a mess or their sentences are not even in a human language.

Ling is having a hard time controlling my sanity. My breakdowns would include hitting my head repeatedly, repeating words and phrases, crying uncontrollably. I have the tendency to throw and smash things around too but i try not to hurl the breakables as i dun wanna clean up the mess after that.

Well, this is the path i chose and i m suffering. So, babes, do u still wanna join me?? Den, i'll  have company at the mental hospital den.

I have been sick for two weeks and still have not recovered. Now my voice is like a duck/transvestite but worse than that. My voice kept breaking up like a spoilt radio. 

AND i still continue to go to work. So, my kids had to listen to this voice ah... It's bcos of them also my voice become like this. I m not doing this to show others that i work hard even though i m sick... I m not trying to get pity from others also although i get lotsa it. pple juz cant stand my voice now. hahah! 

I still go to work cos exams coming soon and i haf to clear all the WS which is A LOT!!! There were already quite a few occasions when I felt like vomiting or fainting during lessons bcos i was feeling unwell and my kids are not exactly angels. 

Yest, I almost teared during lesson bcos I was juz sooooo tired. Since I started this job, I only eat one meal a day excluding the tiny bfast i take at 6am. The next meal I'd eat would be at 5pm. So far, the latest i ate was 9pm. So, the period of time I din eat was longer than fasting. It's not cos I purposely wan to torture myself and look pitiful but me being me, i cant stand doing things halfway. so, i'd most probably do work non-stop. Furthermore, i always haf matters to attend to during my breaks and that include disciplining. 

I m losing weight. I think. My pants are getting loose. Heheh... yeay....

Today, was  a bit better. My kids were well-behaved even without me shouting. They successfully managed to stifle their laughs bcos of my voice. even i, myself, felt like laughing whenever my voice breaks during lesson but i haf already warned them not to mock or tease my voice. so, even the notorious ones were quiet. yeay...

baya asked to go for karaoke so i decided to call her to let her hear my voice and she din even recognise my voice!!!!! she was like, "no, i dunno who u r." HAHAHAHA!!!! i still havent called ama yet. hehe...

so far, ling has been very supportive. I LOVE LING SOOOOOO MUCH!!!! he has been helping me even though he got sick too, thanks to me. no wonder pple from my occupation looooove their husbands so much cos  the husbands have lotsa opportunities to show that they care. hehe..He has been coming over to my house almost everyday to help lighten my burden. Right now, i can count on him. But starting from next week, he'll be werking. Sigh...

i hate myself.